Netivat Sofrut: diary of a Soferet

Adventures of a female sofer learning to heal the world by doing Holy Work...writing a Sefer Torah

נחזיר את השכינה למקומה בצייון ובתבל כלה

"Let us restore the Divine In-Dwelling to Her Place in Zion & infuse Her spirit throughout the whole inhabited world."

So wherever we are, let us bring the Peace of G@d's Presence.

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SCRIBAL EVANGELIST As the only living certified Soferet (סופרת - female Jewish ritual scribe) & the first woman to practice sofrut (creation of sacred Hebrew texts) in over 200 years, I feel an obligation to blog about my experiences of The Work. I am also currently researching the foundation of a lost tradtion of women practicing this holy craft. For more on the services I provide, please see Soferet.com; Sofrut Nation. I am now available to engage with students, male or female, wishing to enter into the preliminary stage of learning sofrut. You are welcome to join me on this path. "Tzedeq, tzedeq tir'dof - Justice, justice you shall pursue." Devarim/Deuteronomy 16:20.

Thursday, December 02, 2004

MORE REBBE NACHMAN WITH REB MILES

BS"D


July 2nd, 2003
Klipot = obstacles because they cover the sweetness but necessary because they protect the essence of the creative source & the more precious & delicate the fruit the thicker the shell...

When a nigun comes to you, let it through. It can move out whatever is blocking you.

A blocker that keeps you from going through the Gate = Ko'ach HaMidameh

The only way to get to your inside, to the depths of your heart, is to break through.
(Rug/Doorway analogy)

"Hardened Heart". Our edges are firmed because of the Ko'ach HaMidameh & our perception of things from which G@d is excluded is narrower & demarqated...we must soften those edges & see the truth everywhere, not the perspectives on truth. Know that whatever truth you have, you never have ALL the truth = you can see a piece of it (Elephant blind analogy) but never the whole thing. Nobody can get enough truth. When we think our perspective on truth is the whole, universal, empirical truth, it hardens your edges = that's the Ko'ach HaMidameh!

You cannot correct someone unless you are filled with love for that person - if you can't see how to do it you have to let it go & pray for them. Otherwise you become combatants...

Truth & peace embrace at exactly the same point. Where you realize you don't really know = that's the highest truth & the deepest peace.

ANSHEI AMANAH = those fully dedicated to the avodah
(shoresh = EMeT/NE'eMan)

When we had the Temple, we had the Sh'khinah so close - it brought her so close - so we could break our hearts open. But when we lost the Beit HaMiqdash, we lost the Shamir (worm which cut the stones for the Temple) not just for *it* but for our hearts. We lost the ability to cut through the hardest hearts, the sense of the sweetness of the earth & air & water & we can't be Anshei Amanah - because we lost our power spot.

"...his family kicked him out because they didn't want an enlightened being around - they wanted a business man or something..."

When you're making a pilgrimage, there are always obstacles to overcome, & the last part you need to walk. You can't just take a train right to the place.

Paradigm shift always involves a breakage.

Now we have to do the Shamir's job on yourself = how do we make our own hearts melt & surrender? We need to consciously develop the seychel to use our inner capacity rather than rely on magic.

Bring out the sweetness of potentiality into actuality.
Soft seychel

WHAT YOU'RE SUFFERING FROM IS A CONSTRUCTED IMAGE.

"Honey drips from your lips" - Shir HaShirim
Is the seychel revealing itself after the heart is softened & the neshamah shines through. Use this sweetness to dissolve your self-constructed image & heal yourself. Like a frame of film caught too long over a projector lamp, it's burned away to clarity.

Forgetfulness is the death of the heart. Remember the world that is coming. There are two possibilities. Field of dreams = if you build it, they will come (another great quote by another great Canadian). Everythime the veneer of the fantasy that G@d isn't present in the world is broken through, the Ko'ach HaMidameh is weakened & we bring Olam Da'atei a little closer...

The whole world will be under Hashgahah (Divine Providence), not under Bachir (free will).

Remember what's coming is what we're hoping for. We've all seen it. Not just in our dreams but sparks of it keep appearing the more emunah we have. It grows from the holy darkness.

You shouldn't think that the world is going to always be the way it appears now, no matter how convincing that is. We're lulled into the idea that it doesn't have greater possibility & you're in danger of losing your heart & hope & remembering the Olam Da'atei.

The people holding the high madreyga are holding the zikron (remembrance) for us.

The Seder is not just bibliodrama = we have to really REMEMBER the miracles & the time(s) when G@d saved our lives miraculously - so unbelieveable that you forget it - but that is Olam Da'atei.

It may look terrible, but I am connected to the hand of G@d & I can see all the signs of the Olam Da'atei which is coming in each & every thing.

Adam Qadmon (template for the structure of the universe mirroring the human body) is everywhere so if we use the Ko'ach HaMidameh in a positive way, we'll actualize this. One continuous unity like the heavens spreading out like a curtain - no seams no end. Kavanah for talit: all things in the world hang from G@d like threads in a tapestry. ALL THREADS ARE G@D. Always adding more of the finest to create beings like us.
You are weaving Hod v'Hadar, these worlds. You are letting heaven hang down. The threads run all the way through, top to bottom, both sides - but we just can't see all of it.

You shouldn't get too involved in this world, because you think your consciousness is high enough that it won't influence you. Just take from it what you need, what is necessary. Because if you get too involved you will lose heart & stop doing your work & won't be plugged into the POWER SOURCE & then there will be no world coming.

Burnout (spiritual or otherwise) is a problem: oseh shalom bimromav...your battery will get run down if you don't recharge from G@d & peace only comes from above.

CEL PHONE ANALOGY: a powerful cel can connect everywhere, but there's not one in the world that doesn't need recharging!
: Olam HaZeh! Olam HaZeh! Olam HaZeh! (Olam HaZehnikim)
: Connexion is portable, but needs recharging
See how far you can go from the plug without recharging. If you know that the power you have came from G@d & thank G@d you did something with it & there's always more to get. Thanks, G@d, for that little bit of juice. So much more reliable than Sprint - doesn't have radiation or cause environmental damage & it doesn't matter what paradigm you're in - it still works for you.

If we lose heart, we see all things with an Ayin Ra. A negative eye will skew your perceptions of the truth that surrounds you. The critic will point out all the reasons why the vision won't happen. Everything rests on Emunah = that's Rebbe Nachman. If you look with eyes of Emunah, you can see it coming & that's not Pollyanna. You can have a dead heart or you can have faith. It's up to you.

Your heart must break open for those with a dead heart, because they don't see the threads of the tapeastry that runs through the fabric that everything hangs on. They have no sense that there is a weaver that never leaves work, constantly renewing the reality with love & skill & attention. & what Master Weaver, to create a creature that doesn't know it's part of the tapestry...

Be a Tam! Find sweetness in everything, but be careful.

When you get to the point when you don't care so much if you're right or wrong, you can get to a place where you realize whatever you think, you really can't know. There's the not knowing that is nihilism = depths of the pit
There's the not knowing that is Emunah = you cannot contain that which you seek to understand conceptually about G@d. It's about control. Start from there & you will meet it positively.
Olam Hazeh. Where peace & truth kiss.

3 Comments:

Blogger Barefoot Jewess said...

I love this. Thank you so much. It was just what I needed today. You make a wonderful scribe! :)

9:14 AM  
Blogger Soferet said...

BS"D
Well, barukh HaShem! May you always get what you need, Barefoot, when you need it. May the Holy One grant that we all recognise when our needs are filled, & that they are met by G@d.
:)
Zei gezunt

12:31 PM  
Blogger Soferet said...

BS"D
Just a thought on the above quote from my notes on Reb Miles Krassen giving over Rebbe Nachman of Breslov:

"Your heart must break open for those with a dead heart, because they don't see the threads of the tapeastry that runs through the fabric that everything hangs on. They have no sense that there is a weaver that never leaves work, constantly renewing the reality with love & skill & attention. & what Master Weaver, to create a creature that doesn't know it's part of the tapestry..."

This reminds me, quite sadly, of a documentary I saw last night on CBC's Fifth Estate called "War Without Borders"
( http://www.cbc.ca/fifth/warwithoutborders/index.html )
That the root of all terrorism, all violence, all negativity is a simple loss of hope. As Rebbe Nachman said, you can faith, or you can have a dead heart, it's up to you. If you look at the world with no hope, no faith, then you will never see G@d all around you, loving you. & as much as this new kind of terrorism we see in the world today, indiscriminate mass murder, claims it's roots in G@d...I believe that these people simply have lost hope & their hearts have become deadened. I believe that Islam is a path to G@d, but that the hopeless & the frightened are using it to empower themselves through violence.
So we must break our hearts open for the disempowered & keep loving them through their hopelessness. Reach out & wake their hearts so they may strengthen their Emunah.
But how to do this?
May the Source of All lead us all into compassion, one for the other.
Ameyn

1:00 PM  

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