B"H
ISRAELI LAUNDROMAT HIJINX & SPIRITUAL WALLS
Thursday, September 4th
Did a LOT of lettering today. My hands & forearms are sore...
At 7 p.m. I'm doing laundry a couple of blocks from my apartment & these Israeli teens are making a video!
It was so hilarious, I laugh out loud as the little one with shining brown eyes & brunette pigtail springs for hair in baggy red plaid pyjama bottoms which say "bootylicious" across the butt & a grey baby T climbs inside one of the dryers, complete with Tevas. They take turns climbing inside & videoing each other they all *might* be 15, at most.
I made myself a strong cup of coffee at home. black black. stirred in some White Death (that would be granulated sugar) & got to work.
Felt very weird - almost like I was coming own with a bug or something. I felt a bit nauseous & uneasy. I know I didn't catch a flu from my flights, because they're too long ago now. Sure I had strong coffee with sugar & only a boiled egg to eat, but that wasn't it. Each time I got up from the table I was just a tiny bit shaky. It was almost imperceptible. Something's wrong & I don't know what it is. Yet.
After webbing & blogging, I settled on the chesterfield & began reading Rav Nebenzahl's book on the month of Elul - & how to effectively do tshuvah (after all, repentance is my middle name) & now I understand my problem. I'm selfish. I'm here to do this work for me & not for G@d, to welcome the precious opportunity to perform the special mitzvot required of me while here. I'm taking, not giving. This is a serious flaw. How can I transform this part of my Self?
I suspect that my fears of being physically injured or murdered while I'm here are not just based on the threats that were made against me the last time I was learning with my sofer, but are linked to my lack of chesed in this area, my sometimes patchy faith in G@d (Shoftim 2:10, 12 & 3:2). If only I could find the chesed & the strength to serve G@d in the way that only I am meant to - the whole reason why I walk this Earth - then I would have no need to feel suspicious or fearful of others. I would simply serve & be preserved by the grace of G@d.
Perhaps this is the beginning of the lesson I was meant to learn about myself by coming here, the lesson alluded to in the dream I had the night after I found out that I was definitely coming to Israel. The dream that told me there was a part of myself that was not in tune with G@d & the sacred path I wish to tread. There's been an old spiritual blockage which I haven't *quite* been able to dismantle on my own, due to the pain of the past that turned me into a taker, a taker whom I've mostly turned around & healed, but not completely. Maybe this is it. I think so. I feel so. Thank G@d. Now what do I do?
All I know is that I won't be worthy to write this Sefer Torah until I have healed this wound.
How do I gently open this part of myself which is still protectively closed, still concerned with preserving my Self & my ego above anything else? I don't have a clue how. I only know what. I'm going to go meditate.
All I could do is cry. I was freezing. Sweating. Heart palpitating. & that nasty taste in my mouth...I went into shock. I got under my quilt fully clothed & lay there stiff & straight, shivering, with my hands over my heart, full of dread. I don't know how long for.
Joel called. I cried to him about my revelation. He loaned me all his love & sympathy & told me that I was in the process of becoming the Real Me. Why do I deserve this man? He's so *good*...
As I began to express my experiences, thoughts & feelings to Joel, I cried & came out of shock. Then as I processed my revelation my body became like a furnace, sweating profusely. I was totally overheated so I turned on the fan AND the air conditioner. It was 4 a.m. I still sweated through my clothes & left a puddle on the plastic dining room chair.
I just want to do this work with all the love & respect & consciousness that it deserves. I have to climb out of this chrysalid to do that.
With G@d's help...
Netivat Sofrut: diary of a Soferet
Adventures of a female sofer learning to heal the world by doing Holy Work...writing a Sefer Torah
נחזיר את השכינה למקומה בצייון ובתבל כלה
"Let us restore the Divine In-Dwelling to Her Place in Zion & infuse Her spirit throughout the whole inhabited world."
So wherever we are, let us bring the Peace of G@d's Presence.
About Me
- Name: Soferet
- Location: Vancouver/London, British Columbia/UK, Canada
SCRIBAL EVANGELIST As the only living certified Soferet (סופרת - female Jewish ritual scribe) & the first woman to practice sofrut (creation of sacred Hebrew texts) in over 200 years, I feel an obligation to blog about my experiences of The Work. I am also currently researching the foundation of a lost tradtion of women practicing this holy craft. For more on the services I provide, please see Soferet.com; Sofrut Nation. I am now available to engage with students, male or female, wishing to enter into the preliminary stage of learning sofrut. You are welcome to join me on this path. "Tzedeq, tzedeq tir'dof - Justice, justice you shall pursue." Devarim/Deuteronomy 16:20.
Community
Filmography
1. "Soferet: A Special Scribe" (2005)
2. Feature documentary on Jewish Renewal (2006) (post-production)
3. "Write for Yourselves" (2007) (post-production)
4. Documentary on Jewish Feminism (2008) (pre-production)
Frequently Asked Questions
- My web site
- My credentials
- What's my story?
- Appearances
- 10 FAQs
- Upcoming Events! (updated)
- Women and Sofrut
- My Take on Fame
- Buy the T-shirt!
- What do my students say?
- Free Mezuzah Check!
- Blog Policy
- MySpace Blog
- MySpace Profile
- Flickr Profile
- Shop for Sofrut?
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More of soferet's photos
Pictures of my Work
Sofrut - ס×פר×ת - Sacred texts
- Megillat Esther Scroll column 1
- Esther Scroll columns 1 & 2
- Esther Scroll columns 3 & 4
- Esther Scroll column 17
- Esther Scroll column 17 & 18
- Mezuzah Scroll (back & front)
- Echad - G@d's Oneness
- Sefer Torah text
- Genesis to Exodus
- A Single Word
- Parshat Vayechi
Qame'ot ve-Segulot - ק××¢×ת ×ס××××ת - Amulets
- 3 Angels childbirth amulet
- Circle Birth amulet
- Meditation Shield
- Fire Amulet
- Tree of Life Star
- Hamsa Amulet
- Meforash Y-H-V-H
- Grid Amulet
- Creation Meditation Circle
Ketubot - ×ת×××ת - Wedding Contracts
- Cherry Tree Ketubah
- Cosmos Ketubah
- Persian Ketubah Border
- Bukharan
- Celtic Rings
- Twined Trees
- Planetary
Mezuzah Batim - Scroll Cases
- Shin Mezuzah Case
- Sh@dai Mezuzah Case
- Gold & Silver leafed Mezuzah Cases
Judaica - Jewish Art
- Alef
- B'reyshit - In the Beginning
- Outside B'reyshit
- Inside B'reyshit
- Hashkiveynu
- Rainbow
- Rosh Chodesh-New Moon
- Klingon Hebrew!
- Aishet Chayil
- Cursive Hebrew
- Avinu Malkeynu
- Shir Ha-Shirim/Song of Solomon
Israel
- B'nai B'rith Canada
- Canada-Israel Committee
- Canada-Israel Experience
- Canadian Jewish Congress
- Jewish Students Canada
- UIA FederationsCanada
Feed – Subscribe to soferet's photos
Blogroll
- A Jewish Soul
- Al Ha veDa ×¢× ×× ×××
- Another Country
- An Unsealed Room
- Bloghead
- Brainsite
- Byroniverse
- Chayyei Sarah
- Customerservant.com
- Danya Ruttenberg!
- Devarim
- Ecclesia Gnostica in Nova Albion
- Epichorus
- Heeb 'n' Vegan
- House of Joy
- In LA: to Life!
- Israelity
- Jerusalem Syndrome
- Jewlicious
- -=JeW*SCHooL=-
- JOFA Development
- Kosher Vancouver ModBlog
- Kadima
- Kaphtziel
- Kesher Talk
- Kisui Rosh
- Little Green Footballs
- Lulei Demistafina
- Matzat
- Mayim Rabim
- Mirty's Place: the journey & beyond
- Mis Dakdek
- Morey Altman
- Modern Orthodox Woman
- Mordechai Pinchas, Sofer
- Moshav HaAm
- Moving to Hawai'i
- Mystical Politics
- On the Fringe - Al Tzitzit
- On the Main Line
- Orthodox Anarchist
- Orthomom
- Picture My World
- Picture Shula!
- Pocket Change
- Quicksilver ×ספ×ת
- Renegade Rebbetzin
- Ruth's Megillah
- Seeking Grace
- SixThirteen
- Sofrut Nation
- The Kosher Blog
- The Rabbi's Kid
- Thoughts from a Rabbi
- Treppenwitz
- Urban Wild
- Velveteen Rabbi
- Wilderness Maggid
4 Non-Blogs
- Midreshet Berot bat Ayin
- Nishmat
- Pardes
- Yeshivat Simchat Shlomo
...plus one:
- Women's Sofrut Certification
Media Centre
- Jewish Women's Archive, week 40
Koleinu - Oct 97,
Jewish Western Bulletin â July 03/August 03/September 03,
Jewish Transcript â September 03,
Jewish Western Bulletin â October 10 03/October 17 03,
Moment Magazine - October 2003,
Jewish Western Bulletin â November 03/December 03,
The Globe And Mail â December 03,
Vancouver Indy Media â February 04,
Hadassah Magazine - May 04,
Lilith Magazine â Summer 04,
Jewish News Weekly of Northern California â February 05,
Jewish Telegraphic Agency â February 05,
Jewish Telegraph, UK â February 05,
Canadian Jewish News â July 05,
The Jewish Forward - June 05,
Jewish Journal of Greater Los Angeles - July 05,
Religious Tolerance Magazine - Oct 05,
The Jewish Independent - November 05,
Lilith Magazine â Autumn 05,
JOFA Magazine - Feb 06,
Hadassah Magazine - March 2006,
Jewish Virtual Library
The Jewish Review - July 06
My Sordid Past
- B"H
DAZED & CONFUSED
Wednesday, September 3rd
W...
- B"H
WRESTLING WITH LETTERS
Tuesday, September 2n...
- DEHYDRATION
- B"H
BAT OUT OF HELL
Sunday, August 31st
I cal...
- ECHOING BLACK STREETS
- HEALING
- THE SINGING SOFER ST"M
- LEAPIN' LIZARDS
- ON ANGELS & SECURITY GUARDS
- ON DAVID'S TOWER, FRENCH TOURISTS, PLAGUES, MARRIA...
* All of the content of this web site, including text, photographs, etc & any other original work, is © copyrighted & all international rights reserved by A. Barclay, including the "soferet 4-branched shin logo" (TM). Want to license content from me? Just ask. I can be very reasonable. Especially if you pay me.
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2. Feature documentary on Jewish Renewal (2006) (post-production)
3. "Write for Yourselves" (2007) (post-production)
4. Documentary on Jewish Feminism (2008) (pre-production)
Frequently Asked Questions
- My web site
- My credentials
- What's my story?
- Appearances
- 10 FAQs
- Upcoming Events! (updated)
- Women and Sofrut
- My Take on Fame
- Buy the T-shirt!
- What do my students say?
- Free Mezuzah Check!
- Blog Policy
- MySpace Blog
- MySpace Profile
- Flickr Profile
- Shop for Sofrut?
- Megillat Esther Scroll column 1
- Esther Scroll columns 1 & 2
- Esther Scroll columns 3 & 4
- Esther Scroll column 17
- Esther Scroll column 17 & 18
- Mezuzah Scroll (back & front)
- Echad - G@d's Oneness
- Sefer Torah text
- Genesis to Exodus
- A Single Word
- Parshat Vayechi
Qame'ot ve-Segulot - ק××¢×ת ×ס××××ת - Amulets
- 3 Angels childbirth amulet
- Circle Birth amulet
- Meditation Shield
- Fire Amulet
- Tree of Life Star
- Hamsa Amulet
- Meforash Y-H-V-H
- Grid Amulet
- Creation Meditation Circle
Ketubot - ×ת×××ת - Wedding Contracts
- Cherry Tree Ketubah
- Cosmos Ketubah
- Persian Ketubah Border
- Bukharan
- Celtic Rings
- Twined Trees
- Planetary
Mezuzah Batim - Scroll Cases
- Shin Mezuzah Case
- Sh@dai Mezuzah Case
- Gold & Silver leafed Mezuzah Cases
Judaica - Jewish Art
- Alef
- B'reyshit - In the Beginning
- Outside B'reyshit
- Inside B'reyshit
- Hashkiveynu
- Rainbow
- Rosh Chodesh-New Moon
- Klingon Hebrew!
- Aishet Chayil
- Cursive Hebrew
- Avinu Malkeynu
- Shir Ha-Shirim/Song of Solomon
Israel
- B'nai B'rith Canada
- Canada-Israel Committee
- Canada-Israel Experience
- Canadian Jewish Congress
- Jewish Students Canada
- UIA FederationsCanada
Feed – Subscribe to soferet's photos
Blogroll
- A Jewish Soul
- Al Ha veDa ×¢× ×× ×××
- Another Country
- An Unsealed Room
- Bloghead
- Brainsite
- Byroniverse
- Chayyei Sarah
- Customerservant.com
- Danya Ruttenberg!
- Devarim
- Ecclesia Gnostica in Nova Albion
- Epichorus
- Heeb 'n' Vegan
- House of Joy
- In LA: to Life!
- Israelity
- Jerusalem Syndrome
- Jewlicious
- -=JeW*SCHooL=-
- JOFA Development
- Kosher Vancouver ModBlog
- Kadima
- Kaphtziel
- Kesher Talk
- Kisui Rosh
- Little Green Footballs
- Lulei Demistafina
- Matzat
- Mayim Rabim
- Mirty's Place: the journey & beyond
- Mis Dakdek
- Morey Altman
- Modern Orthodox Woman
- Mordechai Pinchas, Sofer
- Moshav HaAm
- Moving to Hawai'i
- Mystical Politics
- On the Fringe - Al Tzitzit
- On the Main Line
- Orthodox Anarchist
- Orthomom
- Picture My World
- Picture Shula!
- Pocket Change
- Quicksilver ×ספ×ת
- Renegade Rebbetzin
- Ruth's Megillah
- Seeking Grace
- SixThirteen
- Sofrut Nation
- The Kosher Blog
- The Rabbi's Kid
- Thoughts from a Rabbi
- Treppenwitz
- Urban Wild
- Velveteen Rabbi
- Wilderness Maggid
4 Non-Blogs
- Midreshet Berot bat Ayin
- Nishmat
- Pardes
- Yeshivat Simchat Shlomo
...plus one:- Women's Sofrut Certification
Media Centre
- Jewish Women's Archive, week 40
Koleinu - Oct 97, Jewish Western Bulletin â July 03/August 03/September 03, Jewish Transcript â September 03, Jewish Western Bulletin â October 10 03/October 17 03, Moment Magazine - October 2003, Jewish Western Bulletin â November 03/December 03, The Globe And Mail â December 03, Vancouver Indy Media â February 04, Hadassah Magazine - May 04, Lilith Magazine â Summer 04, Jewish News Weekly of Northern California â February 05, Jewish Telegraphic Agency â February 05, Jewish Telegraph, UK â February 05, Canadian Jewish News â July 05, The Jewish Forward - June 05, Jewish Journal of Greater Los Angeles - July 05, Religious Tolerance Magazine - Oct 05, The Jewish Independent - November 05, Lilith Magazine â Autumn 05, JOFA Magazine - Feb 06, Hadassah Magazine - March 2006, Jewish Virtual Library The Jewish Review - July 06
My Sordid Past
- B"H DAZED & CONFUSED Wednesday, September 3rd W...
- B"H WRESTLING WITH LETTERS Tuesday, September 2n...
- DEHYDRATION
- B"H BAT OUT OF HELL Sunday, August 31st I cal...
- ECHOING BLACK STREETS
- HEALING
- THE SINGING SOFER ST"M
- LEAPIN' LIZARDS
- ON ANGELS & SECURITY GUARDS
- ON DAVID'S TOWER, FRENCH TOURISTS, PLAGUES, MARRIA...
* All of the content of this web site, including text, photographs, etc & any other original work, is © copyrighted & all international rights reserved by A. Barclay, including the "soferet 4-branched shin logo" (TM). Want to license content from me? Just ask. I can be very reasonable. Especially if you pay me.
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Israel & Feminism.
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